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As Joshua and I were settling in for nap time this afternoon, he was wrestling around with the pillows and blankets, being silly, and trying to get situated just so. He then reached his little hand into mine, and fell asleep with his little, sweet, soft hand in mine.
Oh, my heart. I thought it was going to burst with love and happiness and all good things in that moment.
All of my thoughts of inadequacy when it comes to parenting that have been floating around in my heart, weighing me down, just melted away.
And I could almost literally feel my soul flow from my fingers into his little hand.
And once again, God blessed me in those moments.
I once again felt so very clearly what it means to feel like a piece of your heart and soul are walking around outside of your body.
I will soak in these moments and treasure them forever in this mommy heart of mine.
33 weeks 2 days - Picture taken by my 5 year old :)
How I'm Feeling: Pretty good, just very tired. I nap with Joshua each afternoon for 1-2 hours, and I am still ready for bed at 9-10pm, and still can't get out of bed in the morning. My sciatica has seemed to resolve! I have been going to a chiropractor for the first time ever! But my ribs are causing me quite a lot of pain. (I broke two of my ribs on the left side almost 2 years ago. Now that the baby is pushing up on my ribs, that old injury is quite irritated. The pain is radiating around my entire rib cage on my left side, causing me quite a lot of upper back pain.)
Cravings: I can't tolerate too much food at once anymore, seeing as how there is no room in there for food! As far as specific cravings, I can't think of any right now.
What I am Looking Forward to: It's becoming real now that we are getting close! I am starting to wonder what kind of personality he is going to have, what he is going to look like. I am starting to think about the actual birth now. Eeeek! So excited!!
I have come to the conclusion that insurance companies and healthcare and medical supply companies try to make things so complicated for you, just so that you give up in frustration and confusion! Then they don't have to pay for whatever you were trying to get covered.
As you may remember, I tried to order a breastpump a few months ago through my insurance company, but they told me it was too early in the pregnancy to order one. Fine... so they told me to try again in late October, or November. So here we are.
Today, I called a medical supply company that was on the list that the insurance company sent to me of approved medical supply providers for breastpumps. They verified my insurance information and my address, and said that my breastpump would be in the mail within 1-2 days!
Woo hoo! That was easy!!
Yeah, not so much.
Not too long after that, I got a call back from the medical supply company saying she was terribly sorry but my insurance company does not cover a breastpump... unless the baby is premature, and I am discharged from the hospital before the baby. I was very confused. This didn't make ANY sense at all to me. I thanked her for her time, and hung up the phone.
I soon got on the phone with my insurance company to try to figure out what the heck was going on. The lady who helped me was very kind and said she was pretty sure breastfeeding supplies, including a breastpump, were all covered. She said she would verify for me. She did her checking, and it IS indeed covered! Yay!
But why would the medical supply company say otherwise? Hmmm.
The insurance company had me on hold, while she contacted the medical supply company herself. After a long hold, she confirmed that everything is indeed fine, and they would be sending out my breastpump as originally promised. "It looks like it was all just a misunderstanding." Hmmm.
So, this appears to have ended well... but I guess I can't be 100% sure until I have the pump in my possession.
Have you or anyone know you had this issue with getting a breastpump covered through insurance?! Or am I the only one?!
I was hoping to have the baby's nursery put together for these pictures, but I just can't seem to get myself together to get the nursery done! (Good thing I have about 6-7 more weeks left!) But I snapped a few pics...
I love the quality and cuteness of this mobile. You can request custom colors and ideas, too, from Ashley! This makes it so easy to make a very personalized nursery for your precious little one-of-a-kind baby!
Dear Friends and Strangers, Family and Acquaintances,
The following things are statements and/or comments that I do NOT need to hear, as I prepare for the arrival of my 3rd little blessing.
Now, please don't get me wrong. I have had a lot of joyful comments and lots of love my way, too. And I have been on the other side of this too. I am sure I have given unneeded advice to my fellow moms. I have said things to other expectant moms or new moms, that I recall in my head and I cringe that I said such a thing. Sometimes we say things that pop into our heads. The intent is positive but it comes out wrong.
But... by all means, please take note.
1. Laughter. I do not need your chuckles when I say, "Yep, it's a 3rd boy!" Unless it's laughter because you HAVE 3 boys and you are about to tell me how awesome it is. In that case, laughter is welcome.
2. How hard it is to adjust to baby #3. I do not need to hear this, because, well, that was your experience, and is not a prediction of how my experience will be. I have had many comments to this effect. "Just wait until the 3rd one comes... the 3rd one is so hard to adjust to! It goes from man to man defense to zone defense... you are outnumbered!" In reality, this varies so much from family to family. I had a really difficult adjustment going from 1 to 2 kids. They are only 21 months apart. I struggled very much with post-partum depression and anxiety. And then before my 2nd son's 1st birthday, my husband lost his job at our church and we had to leave our church home. I had 2 children in diapers. My 2nd son didn't sleep through the night until he was at least 2.5 years old. Don't you see? All of these factors contribute to how hard the adjustment is. It makes NO sense to say, across the board, #2, or #3, or #4 is the toughest or easiest adjustment. I am crossing my fingers that baby #3 will be an easier adjustment than baby #2. I am hoping that having Benjamin in full-day kindergarten, and Joshua in preschool a couple days a week, and NOT having 2 in diapers, and also already being treated for depression and anxiety, will all contribute to this adjustment to be slightly smoother than the last. And if it's not? I will still be okay. I will survive. But I will not be paralyzed, in the meantime, thinking about the worst-case scenario and how bad it could be.
3. "Do you think you'll still try for a girl?!" Well, considering I am still in the middle of this beautiful pregnancy, I would really like to focus on him. He is a beautiful blessing from God, and I am not about to be disappointed in this pregnancy or this baby simply because of what is between his legs. I am going to rest in the joyful anticipation of a new life coming into our sweet family. I am going to be joyful that we are blessed. Right now, I am going to be thankful that God has entrusted me to raise these 3 boys. Can you please not rush me into thinking about another pregnancy? I would like to enjoy this one.
4. "Your 3rd boy! So you have everything you need!" Well, sort of, I do have some boy clothes. But that doesn't mean I don't have the same desire as any other expectant mother to buy a cute baby outfit or toy for him. Or to have some new baby things that are just for him. The last thing I want is for this baby to have every. single. thing hand-me-down and raggedy, just because he's the 3rd boy. Part of the excitement of pregnancy is getting a few new things just for him. And I don't think there is anything wrong with wanting to celebrate him in this way.
This baby is a precious gift from God. I welcome comments about what a blessing he is. I welcome comments that you are praying for his health and that he will grow to be a wonderful man of God. I welcome you to touch my belly and talk to him and for you to tell him you love him already. :)
How I'm Feeling: Pretty good this week. I am having continued trouble with sciatica, but it comes and goes. Some days it is non-existent, and other days it is very limiting. I am also back to wanting to go to bed at 9pm... hello 3rd trimester!
Cravings: The other night, I told my husband randomly that I really wanted tapioca pudding. But I didn't get to indulge! This is something I haven't eaten in probably 5 years!
What I am Looking Forward to: This time of year is my absolute favorite! Ah... the crisp, fresh, fall air! I am looking forward to continuing to spend time outside with the other two kids while the weather is beautiful. I am also beginning to really go through baby clothes and items to see what I have/need! The baby's crib is up and put together! About 2 months to get everything together!!
Most awesome thing right now: The boys continue to talk about the baby a lot. They hug and kiss my belly often! We are in the alien-trying-to-bust-out-of-my-belly phase! So it's fun to see him flipping around in there!